My first love and I were dating for a year when he decided out of the blue that he didn't want to be with me anymore...I knew we were having problems but I didn't realize how big the problems were. He first told me that he felt paranoid about being with me (I come from a background where I am not allowed to date and we were sneaking around), the next time he told me that he was feeling distant and the relationship wont work, and his last reason (I've said my final goodbye so I don't know what his reason is or not) is that he wasn't happy in the relationship...and I feel heartbroken, confused and rejected. I know many people think their first love is forever...I did too, but the fact that he just threw away me and our relationship hurts me...I feel like I can't even get my closure because I don't know the real reason. I would assume it is not another girl since he isn't that kind of guy (but than again I thought he wouldn't break my heart so I have no idea). I feel disgusted with myself as well, I am a hopeless romantic and naive as well...I thought he would be the only one for me...so I gave him hjs (I am not proud of it whatsoever) because I thought it wouldn't matter since he would be the only one...and now I feel used and rejected because he has seen me unclothed, and he has touched me...when I only wanted the man I'd be with forever to see and touch me like that (im quite traditional or rather narrow minded in regards to relationships ( being together with one man forever)...but again naive). Also this was my first boyfriend, my first love and my first real heartbreak, so any advice or help would be greatly appreciated.