First off I want to start by saying that I have a wonderful relationship with my boyfriend, he is sweet, honest, caring and takes every opportunity to show me how amazing he thinks I am and how much he cares for me. BUT after a year of being together I know that I am in love with him and want to be with him forever because he is like my soul mate, my best friend and I cant imagine my life without him in it. I thought he loved me but was maybe too scared to say it since he had only said it once before so I flat out asked him one night "do you love me?" and he said "I dont know yet." What does this mean? how can he act in the ways that he does towards me and not love me? Its really baffling to me.
And I forgot to mention that there is a few year gap between us, he is in his early twenties and I am almost 30. I really dont know what to do because I dont want to stay with him for another year and get to a point where Im thinking where is this going? if it's not going to end in marriage you know?
At what point do I walk away even though there is nothing wrong with the relationship besides the fact he hasnt said I love you. I want to feel secure and know all this time I have invested in this relationship has some sort of pay off so to speak. Is this wrong? Im so confused what should I do?